Hello Readers!
Have you ever been unable to feel?
I used to feel loved when I was with Matt #2. I felt sexy, happy, outgoing, youthful... and I felt hated, disgusted, outraged, offended, abused, berated, worthless. By now I know that he wasn't the one, he was kind of using me, it didn't mean to him what it meant to me. The point is, I felt.
Now, I have mini-emotions, but never like overwhelming like I've felt before. It's like I'm a flat line. Apparently seroquel is a very effective mood stabilizer - cause I'm definitely stable when I'm on it. When I'm on it, I don't get the crazy extremes I used to. But I'd like a little up and down now and then so I stop taking them. I'm great for a couple days, then I hit rock bottom again or go ballistic or feel like I'm on cloud nine and you could kill my cat right in front of me and I wouldn't care.
So, do I take the drugs and try harder to feel or do I not take them and risk injury to myself and/or others? I'm torn, and my psychiatrist is hesitant to try anything stronger.
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thoughts are amazing things. they can be deep or superficial. they can be right or wrong. they can wander off, you can be lost in them. you can think about several things at once, or just focus on one particular specimen. a thought can be passing, a thought can be treading. you can keep a thought to yourself or you can share it with the world.
.+~share it with the world people!~+.
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- Mary
- Clinton, OK, United States
- Where to begin... I'm a 27 year old mother of 1 who loves video games, fast food, pop music and sci-fi. Let's just call me a "nerd". I'll take it wholeheartedly, even agree with that label.
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1 comment:
I don't think it's a matter of need to 'try' to 'feel more.' I think a better perspective would be to say that you need to be more sensitive to the feelings you are having.
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