catching yourself

Hello readers!

One thing that my therapist and I have discussed at great lengths is catching yourself before you fall.

When a person with bpd encounters an obstacle in the "road of life", let me tell you, they fall and they fall hard. This leads to cuts and bruises that last for a long time. They lack the ability to see ahead that the road clears up, and they lack the ability to learn from their mistakes. This leads to a vicious cycle of falling and hurting and falling and hurting instead of falling and hurting and healing by avoiding the obstacles in the first place.

I know I am a victim to this. I make the same mistakes over and over again, even though I should know better. No matter how many times I convince myself I've learned my lesson, all thought goes out of my head when I'm actually in the situation. So my next step is learning how to stop and think. It's just like our "theme" here at work. Stop. Think. Protect. Yes, my work life applies to my personal life. Insane, I know.

So I'm going to start looking ahead, down that path of life, and I'm going to make a conscious effort to avoid the giant rocks (aka matt#2.)